I’m beginning to wonder why everyone keeps asking me if I’m “scared” to move to New York. Yes of course I’m scared of a new environment, lifestyle, job, coworkers, friends, roommates. Just like everyone else would feel about moving to a different city following a job promotion. But the difference between my version of scared and most other people’s is that I have been scared for more than half my life. I have been paralyzed by fear. For many years I let my fear define me, since I couldn’t dream of overcoming it. I didn’t reach so I couldn’t miss. What makes me able to do this even though I’m scared is that I’ve walked through my fear enough to know that what’s on the other side is never as bad as it seems.
Also, can we be real for a moment? I’m not moving to New York City with $20 in my pocket hoping to get recognized. I am moving because I’ve worked hard to be recognized and I’ve wanted this badly. I have a great paying job and a place to live. I am not scared of not fitting in, of screwing up, of getting lost. I’ve done it all before and I’ll proudly do it all again.
You don’t have to like me, but you do have to stay the hell out of my way. I don’t have interest in entertaining your back handed comments and questions. You don’t have the guts or the drive that I do and that’s why you couldn’t do this. Don’t reflect your insecurities on me and my journey. Keep it movin.